I have been waking up at 5am in the morning with panic attacks, my mind racing, my heart pumping, my body covered in a thin sheen of sweat. I have been dreaming endless, anxiety-filled, narrated dreams whereby the things I have been working endlessly to build all come crashing down. I have been fighting, slamming doors and (accidentally) breaking framed pictures. I have been a wreck. And unfortunately, it wasn't the taste of these delectable roasted garlic and yam burgers with a Tamari almond coating that's been keeping up - it's just been my own anxiety.
There is no use bemoaning what got me here. There is no use worrying. I have long-ago learned that in my case, anxiety is what accompanies anything worth fighting for, any risk, any new venture. So the point of this post is not to illicit sympathy - I truly don't feel that my situation warrants it (though I will take some positive energy!).
But the point of this post is to put it out there that I need to adjust my priorities. This blog is one of them, but so is my day job, and my relationship. And I have been trying to go full-steam ahead on all three of these, as well as about four others... And I feel like I have been coming up short on all fronts.
You see, when my day job fell into my lap, I truly wasn't expecting it. I was working hard to establish a rhythm with blogging, freelance assignments, and getting to know my city. The trouble was, my bank account was sorely showing the neglect. I still haven't opened the site up to ads - I guess I still lack the technical know-how, the knowledge about the rates, and in some part of me, the gumption to say - this is worth paying for. My work, my words, my soul and my ideas, they are all worth paying for. I know it, but it's been hard to proclaim it out loud to the internet via a glossy ad rate sheet (nor do I really know how to design a glossy ad rate sheet. Any helpers out there?).
And then my day job came. Glorious and exciting, but also terribly new, unknown and, truth be told, quite challenging. I loved diving into it, but it has also provoked fears and worries that weren't there before. You see, now people are counting on me. Now I have responsibilities. Now, I have found the limited space in my head split between recipe ideas and constant thoughts about programming, outreach, Judaism. Everything fit together, but in some ways, it also didn't. And it was, and remains, and adjustment.
This is all to say, I'm getting there. I am finding ways to balance, to juggle, to stay put. I am searching for my centre, and I wish I had more time to engage with it. I know it will all come to fit, but some concessions are going to have to be made. Some things will need changing, and others dropping.
So, dear readers, I'd like to ask you to bear with me as I work through these shifting tides. If you have ideas and advice about setting up ad rates for the blog and increasing its profitability, let me know. If you have great ideas about Jewish programming about food, send me an email. If you live in Montreal, are Jewish, and would really like to help a sister out, I'm all ears. And if you have a problem with the fact that on Fridays, I will continue posting links but cut out the recipe, then maybe this blog isn't the place for you.
Because this will never be the space that feeds an endless machine of content. Maybe, as a result, it will never be the space that gets millions of visitors and tens of thousands of dollars of ad revenue. But it will always be the place of honesty, self-reflection, and creativity. And I hope you'll join me for the ride.
Now, a word about these yam burgers: they rock. I usually tend to stray towards the side of chunky bean burgers, full of spice and heft and texture. But when the idea came to me to work with NaturSource's Tamari almonds in veggie burger form, I immediately thought their crunch and smokiness would pair nicely with a silkier burger. Experimentation led me to a roasted yam burger that is baked instead of fried, and laced with fragrant strands of roasted garlic. Wedged in a sourdough bun with curried vegan mayo or tahini sauce, and topped with my favourite quick-pickled vegetables and a bit of Sriracha, this roasted garlic and yam burger has truly been the stuff of dreams.
I urge you all to make it, pronto - and hope that it helps you find your balance, too.
For more curry recipes:
- Winter dilly zucchini and carrot curry {V, GF, Paleo}
- 30-minute squash and greens curry, or what my weeknight cooking looks like
- {GIVEAWAY} German roasted cauliflower with curry cashew crust and a New German Cooking cookbook giveaway {V, GF, Paleo}
- Roasted garlic and yam burgers with a Tamari almond coating {V, GF, Paleo}
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Recipe
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Roasted garlic and yam burgers with a Tamari almond coating, or getting your priorities straight
Ingredients
- 4 med-sized sweet potatoes or yams
- 1 garlic
- ½ onion chopped finely
- 1 teaspoon cumin
- ½ teaspoon salt
- juice of ¼ lemon
- ½ - 1 cup Tamari almonds chopped (start with ½ and add more if you need it)
- For serving:
- buns
- a few leaves of kale/ spinach
- Raw onion wedges OR Quick-pickled fall vegetables immigrantstable.com/2014/11/12/quick-pickled-fall-vegetables-or-how-to-punch-up-any-salad/
- Curried mayo: a mix of 2 TBs of mayo with 1 teaspoon of curry powder OR
- Tahini sauce: a mix of 2 TBs of raw tahini with 4 TBs lemon and 1 teaspoon of water and a sprinkling of salt
Instructions
- Preheat oven to 425F. Arrange whole yams and garlic (with the top part cut off and the garlic cloves exposed) on an aluminum-covered baking sheet. Drizzle garlic with a bit of olive oil (not the yams). Bake for an hour, removing the garlic after 20 minutes. Let rest until it's cool enough to handle.
- Into a big mixing bowl, squeeze out the garlic (do not be afraid to really get in there with your fingers and get all of that yummy roasted garlic flesh out). Cut yams in half, scoop out their flesh and add to the garlic.
- Mince an onion finely, and add to bowl with yams and garlic. Season with cumin, salt and lemon. Try to form patties - they should easily stick together. If they don't, add gluten-free (or regular flour) until they do, one TB at a time; if mixture is too dry, add a bit more lemon juice.
- Chop Tamari almonds into small pieces, but not crushed into powder - I put them in a plastic bag and hit the bag with a rolling pin until the nuts are crushed into small pieces. Pour into a shallow plate.
- Form patties out of the yam mixture, and roll each patty in the crushed almonds; you may have to pat them a bit with your hands to ensure the nuts really get in there. (All this can be done in advance, and the burgers frozen with parchment paper separating between their layers.)
- When ready to prepare burgers, preheat oven to 375F. Cover a baking sheet with aluminum foil, and drizzle with about a TB of oil, spreading it evenly. Arrange burgers on baking sheet, and bake at 375 for 8 minutes on one side, and then 5-8 minutes on the other. Remove from oven, and let cool a bit before eating.
- Serve in your favourite bun with curried mayo or tahini, quick-pickled veggie burgers or raw onion, and the mandatory drizzle of Sriracha.
Valya @ Valya' s Taste of Home says
Never tried adding nuts to burgers. Sounds good! 🙂
kseniaprints says
I don't do it often, but it worked great in this case! I imagine it would work well with milder things like fish and chicken, as well.
Kimberly/TheLittlePlantation says
Hi Ksenia,
it's really funny but as I saw on instagram that you've posted yet another recipe I though to myself: Wow, I don't know how she finds the time. As a fellow blogger I know how time consuming this process is. Perhaps you are putting too much pressure on yourself. No one expects you to post 2-3 times a week, except you! I think as long as there is some consistency - i.e. a post once a week or once a fortnight, I think you'll be just fine. A blog ultimately should be a source of joy, not stress 🙂
I sadly don't know much about ad spaces as I've chosen to go down a slightly different route. But I know that you can google 'how to make money of your blog' and LOADS of tips and tricks are divulged by other boggers who have.
Please look after yourself;)
Wishing you well
Kimberly
kseniaprints says
Kimberly, of course you're right. But if I didn't put pressure on MYSELF, who would I stress instead?! Lol 🙂 In all seriousness, I always struggle with my own expectations of myself. It's a constant battle, and I keep reminding myself how important balance can be... But then I forget it when I want to do 10,999 things before next Monday.
Sarah says
That is one good looking burger. I do hope you made time to enjoy it! 🙂 Remember, everything happens for a reason.
kseniaprints says
Don't I know it... Life is certainly full of surprising twists and turns.
michelle falk says
I'm trying these tonight. Wish me luck!
kseniaprints says
Hope it worked out for you!